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Seneschal - April 27, 2000
Apr. 27th, 2000 12:43 pmTwo days until Coronation, when I hand over the canton to Ragnarr. Which is probably best for both me, and the canton. I'm definitely not the worst Seneschal in Bryniau's history, but I'm also not the best.
Of course, as Eleanor says, I at least handled it with grace under pressure, especially the most horrible parts.
Two days to go until Coronation, and therefore 18 to go until the anniversary. It's stunning to think that it's been a year. I thought, at the time, that I'd never get over the grief. And truthfully, I'm still not completely over it, or I'd be out in armour.
Which isn't fair to Bernie, because I think she'd have been upset by her death being a factor in preventing me from doing something. Especially something she encouraged and helped me to do.
One of the things that was truly amazing about Bernie wasn't the way she could light up a room or inspire others (both of which she could), but the sheer number of people who were touched by her. It was only after she'd died that most of us realized, I think, how many people she'd helped, inspired, and made a difference to. Because when she was alive, she wasn't obvious about it.
In years to come, people will sing about Os, even people who didn't know him. His life and death made him a legend, and in years to come, I'm sure he'll be called a shining star in the heavens, companion to Ealdormere.
Bernie will never be a legend. But she is, and will continue to be, an example of what type of person you can be if you, sometimes, put other people first. A star to guide us, even if that star is held close, rather than put on display in the heavens. And I think it's time I started following that star, rather than mourning it.
Of course, as Eleanor says, I at least handled it with grace under pressure, especially the most horrible parts.
Two days to go until Coronation, and therefore 18 to go until the anniversary. It's stunning to think that it's been a year. I thought, at the time, that I'd never get over the grief. And truthfully, I'm still not completely over it, or I'd be out in armour.
Which isn't fair to Bernie, because I think she'd have been upset by her death being a factor in preventing me from doing something. Especially something she encouraged and helped me to do.
One of the things that was truly amazing about Bernie wasn't the way she could light up a room or inspire others (both of which she could), but the sheer number of people who were touched by her. It was only after she'd died that most of us realized, I think, how many people she'd helped, inspired, and made a difference to. Because when she was alive, she wasn't obvious about it.
In years to come, people will sing about Os, even people who didn't know him. His life and death made him a legend, and in years to come, I'm sure he'll be called a shining star in the heavens, companion to Ealdormere.
Bernie will never be a legend. But she is, and will continue to be, an example of what type of person you can be if you, sometimes, put other people first. A star to guide us, even if that star is held close, rather than put on display in the heavens. And I think it's time I started following that star, rather than mourning it.
