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Seneschal - April 13, 2000
Apr. 13th, 2000 12:28 pmI was castigated for being too hard on myself yesterday. Entirely possible, but I suspect actually not. Sometimes I think I'm not hard enough on myself.
However, having saved the day with the surprise 5-point pictionary answer, and having had my monthly massage therapy appointment, I'm feeling pretty good.
All in all a good day. The planters left work today, destined to be filled with earth and plants. I'm somewhat jealous of the people who get to fill them. Working with earth is something I enjoy.
Still 17 days until I want to make my decision by, and I'm still not sure what to do. Part of me fears the consequences of staying, even if things get normal.
Mostly because, when I step back and look at it, I'm kind of tired of always giving up things, giving in. LARP, the seneschal's position. Noises made about my job being expensive to commute to, which I fear turning into requests, then demands to quit. Compromise is necessary to maintain any relationship, but it sucks to be the one always compromising.
That's all.
However, having saved the day with the surprise 5-point pictionary answer, and having had my monthly massage therapy appointment, I'm feeling pretty good.
All in all a good day. The planters left work today, destined to be filled with earth and plants. I'm somewhat jealous of the people who get to fill them. Working with earth is something I enjoy.
Still 17 days until I want to make my decision by, and I'm still not sure what to do. Part of me fears the consequences of staying, even if things get normal.
Mostly because, when I step back and look at it, I'm kind of tired of always giving up things, giving in. LARP, the seneschal's position. Noises made about my job being expensive to commute to, which I fear turning into requests, then demands to quit. Compromise is necessary to maintain any relationship, but it sucks to be the one always compromising.
That's all.
